Mostly, I don't want to say stupid stuff

This is such a big and personal story.  Mostly, it isn't mine though.  I want to be careful and thoughtful.  If someone finds this blog, I hope it is a blessing.  I hope someone can learn something and perhaps gain a perspective that they didn't have before.

I won't go back to the beginning, but try to move forward.  I think.

But, the beginning matters.  When I met my friend...she was just the sister of an actual friend.  Not really my friend.  When I met her, she didn't have cancer.  I remember that we played cards on New Year's Eve.

That was a few years ago. 

Since then she was diagnosed with lymphoma. 

Since New Year's Eve we have become friends and now I see her more than I see her sister. 

Now I see her in the hospital and get pictures texted to me of her tumors.

Often, I don't know what to say.

Mostly, I don't want to say stupid stuff.