Us

I was just going to try to move forward with my thoughts but was reflecting on the past and who she is.  Well, the parts I know and am getting to know.

She never got married - though she felt love, I know she has also felt pain.

She never had children - though she is a wonderful aunt.  She has strong ideas about how kids are raised though and we have fun talking about what a mess kids can be, I have two. 

She used to have a job.  She got sick and then laid off.  THAT wasn't a great month. 

She used to have a house of her own.  She ended up needing to give it up to short sell.  (read the above statement again) She lives with her parents now and has an amazing mom that I wish was mine.  I was with her the day she cleaned it out.  Hard to give up personal space and control over where stuff goes. 

She quit smoking.  I was so dang proud of her for that.  Addicted to suckers for a while.  Loved the pineapple ones.  Now she is free of it all. 

She has strong political opinions that make for interesting conversations and she is not afraid to post controversial comments out and about on blogs and such.  I love her passion when it comes to politics.  I love that she isn't afraid to throw it out there to talk about.  I agree with about 90% of it, but tend not to be so bold.  I have learned from her example.  Sometimes you just gotta say it!

She has strong religious views.  I love that too.  She isn't a church goer - but a Jesus follower.  I know her faith is strong.  I know her hate of hypocrisy is strong also.  Somehow it makes me feel blessed that I get to be part of her life in spite of whatever hypocrisy she may see in me. 

She loves games and puzzles.  Which is actually how we met, paying cards.  Funny, I don't love games so much.  Hard for me to sit in one place for too long.

Sometimes that is the part that hits me the most.  Why don't I make more time to just sit and play the dang card games?  What is so stinking important?  Living my life.  Living.